Thursday, July 14, 2011
When a baby cries....
When a baby cries, most people shudder. After 'meeting' so many amazing women in blog land, I have learned that a babies cry is comfort. I just heard my 19 month old crying from her crib saying 'MaaaMeeee'. How blessed am I? 2 amazing children that we immediately got pregnant with both. Even our miscarriage baby. That baby had a heart beat for 7 weeks until it stopped and couldn't keep beating any longer. This was on March 1, 2009. The doctor said wait 3-4 months to try again for everything to 'heal'. We had a D&C so we wouldn't have to deal with any middle of the night ER visits with another small child at home. After the surgery, Dr. Tucker said he mainly removed a placenta 'sac' and a heart. The baby really wasn't forming at all that the rate it should have been for a 7 week old fetus. I believe in things happening for a reason and instead of bringing a critically ill child in to this world that would not survive (and suffer in unnecessary pain), nature knows when to take it's course. I specifically remember calling on March 10th, 2009 for a positive pregnancy test appointment. Within 10 minutes my doctor was on the phone calling me and he said ' MAN!! That was fast!!' We kept things low key until about 10 weeks and knew that this new baby was healthy and growing properly (this was Hadley).I have been bitten by the baby bug this week. I know it's only because Holdyn has been gone for almost 2 weeks and the bite will vanish quickly when he returns on Sunday! I have missed him so much. His smell, his hugs, his kisses, rubbing my fingers through his hair. I haven't heard an emergency siren in almost 2 weeks and I am longing to hear that on Sunday night! We also got mail from his new teacher today. It was explaining about open house and what we need to bring and when we need to come and he has a little 'homework' assignment to turn in when we go to open house. I am leary of Pre-K this year and I don't know why. I (and Holdyn too I'm sure!) am going to miss Ms. Maria and Ms. Jeanie so much that it is going to be so hard to accept a new teacher. I know, I know, we will do this every year and Ms. Maria has RAVED about the school Holdyn will be going to and how amazing his teacher is, but I guess I will just have to wait and see for myself to be comforted. What would my dear husband say if I ripped him our of this new Pre-K to take him back to his old school (and drive an hour both ways) for one last year with Ms. Maria... for mainly MY comfort. Ok so he would probably think I was crazy and kill me!! Ha! I promise I will give this newness a chance. I hate new situations.... just like Holdyn does. Holdyn needs to hurry home so the baby bug will go away!!!
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