Friday.....

I have a horrible headache today. I would usually blame it on the weather (It's thundering and about to start pouring rain), but I know it has nothing to do with the weather. I have had a lot of anixety and a headache off and on all weekend and I know it's just going to get worse as the week goes on. I am VERY good at stressing myself out about things in life. Holdyn has taken after me on that trait. He does the exact same thing when he is worried/stressed/nervous (or even excited) about something. It's something that I can't help and I can't control. Yes, it's dumb... People say "Well don't worry"... or "Don't stress yourself out, everything will be fine"... I know, I know... but it's a lot eaiser said than done, and it's very easy for people who DON'T suffer from anxiety (that you have no control over) to say these things, but when I am nervous or worried about something, my anxiety goes through the roof.... literally! I am getting myself worked up and nervous and anxious and stressed out more than I probably ever have in my life. I am starting to totally freak out about....... FRIDAY!!!! Why in the world would I stress out about Friday, you ask? Well let me explain.....

Friday, Holdyn starts.....................

K.I.N.D.E.R.G.A.R.T.E.N. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and this neurotic mother might be just a TAD bit sad... depressed.... nervous.... anxious....(all for my own selfish reasons) but I maybe a little excited too...... (for him!)

 He already knows how to dress like a handsome little man....



He already knows how to smile....

He already knows how to dress like a puppy dog....

He already knows how to read.....

He already knows that he is 5!

He already knows how to drive a car...

He has already learned all about beer....

He is already a momma's boy....

What else does a boy need to learn that's more important than the love for his momma??!!!

Mom, do I really have to go to Kindergarten?

Please, mom?! I will give you my cute adorable look if I can stay with you all day!

I hope we don't get this reaction on Friday!!!

Seriously though he is excited... we have been talking it up for awhile. I think he will do great..... I can't promise I will do great, though, and I can't promise I wont bawl my eyes out the entire day shed a tear. It's going to be an adjustment. I don't know what I will do with myself ALL DAY. I know I will have Hadley, but they have two totally different personalities! He has never been gone from me all day on a constant basis. I knew this day would come, but man did it come fast! (and did I mention he wants to ride the bus?!! That is another can of worms for another blog post!) I am curious to see how Hadley will adjust too. Towards the end of the school year last year, he would be gone an hour and she was already asking to go and pick up Holdyn "right now!!" and that was him only being gone in the mornings.... I don't know how she will adjust to him being gone all day! I hope to plan some fun things just for her and I to do, and I know she will enjoy some more one on one time and attention!

There is just SOMETHING about a little boy's unconditional love for their momma!!  It really pulls at your heart strings!!